Life Style

My first love cheated on me, I’m still hung up on it 20 years later

DEAR ABBY: I still obsess over my first love, even though we broke up 21 years ago. We grew up in a poor mill town, where I was a frustrated, mediocre athlete. She was a cheerleader. We shared fundamentalist religious beliefs that, along with poor access to contraception, led to our decision to “save ourselves for marriage” during our five-plus years of regular dating. Unlike most of our peers, we were able to attend college. 

Around the time of my graduation, when many of my friends were getting married, she met a minor league baseball player and, in a very short while, traveled to another state with him and parted with her virginity. Soon after that, she hooked up with a major college football player for a summer fling, and then with a much older divorced lawyer. 

I put up a good front as I continued a rigorous graduate program, but I was physically sick and extremely depressed and disillusioned to the point of having suicidal thoughts. 

By chance, I ran into her 15 years later. We were both married, and she was heavily involved in Christian ministry. I told her in a non-judgmental way that her affairs had been very hurtful. We had a nice lunch and parted on good terms, but she was unapologetic and dismissed all of that as “just sex.” 

Abby, after all this time, I’m still confused. I don’t know what I’m seeking. Maybe I want revenge. Am I crazy to hold on for so long, or do others carry their pain for a lifetime? — NOT SHAKING HER IN THE SOUTH

DEAR NOT SHAKING HER: Yes, some people do carry their pain for a lifetime, unless they deal with it. You appear to have the entire roster of your ex-girlfriend’s romantic involvements. (She sure must talk a lot!) I have a strong hunch that what you wanted when you took her to lunch was a sincere apology for hurting you all those years ago. That none was offered illustrates the depth of her insensitivity. 

My friend, you don’t need revenge — you need to stop reliving the past. It is a waste of your energy. If you can’t manage to do this on your own, counseling may help.

DEAR ABBY: My wife works from 2 p.m. to 10 p.m. The other night she left me a voicemail saying, “I’m super tired so I’m not coming home tonight. I’m going to stay in a motel.” We live 20 minutes from her job. I am, to say the least, very upset. She swears she didn’t go with anyone — she just went there and slept. I’m not sure I believe her. I’m also not sure what to do next. Help, please. — PERPLEXED HUSBAND IN MICHIGAN

DEAR HUSBAND: One would think that your wife is used to the schedule she works. What she did is highly unusual, not to mention costly. Can she produce the receipt from the motel? If she can, let it slide — this time. If it happens again, consider hiring a private detective to help you gain insight into her sudden change of behavior.

Dear Abby is written by Abigail Van Buren, also known as Jeanne Phillips, and was founded by her mother, Pauline Phillips. Contact Dear Abby at or P.O. Box 69440, Los Angeles, CA 90069.

Source link

Related Articles

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Back to top button